I thought I had given myself (an us) enough time to adjust, but well...I guess I should have allocated three weeks instead of just two. I am still walking around a bit like a zombie, not knowing where to start on anything. You know the first few weeks after you bring a new baby home and you just wander around in a daze and realize that four days have gone by and what the heck have you been doing the whole time? Yes, thats me. That's where I'm at. S jumped right back into a regular work up schedule so there hasn't been any time for him to take his 90 hours of leave. And it hasn't helped that his car has died. And we finally had the obligatory knock down drag out over finances and scheduling last night. This coming together of minds is a good thing - it is a sign that we are finally getting back into our groove of being a family of five again. However, that is one thing the Hispanic culture has down pat...get all of your frustrations out, yell and scream, throw a few plates and then put it all behind you. Make up and forget about it.
Every time we are in this place, I am reminded of how much energy it really takes to be married and to parent together. A lot my friends! A lot! I have not blogged or sewn much and it has left me feeling a bit like a loser and a bit disconnected. I have done a lot of gluten free cooking for S, cleaning, hosting get togethers for our friends, conversating and organizing the house since S's return. And I am just as exhausted at bedtime as I was when he was gone. Now, how is that? You would think that having an extra pair of hands around would be easier on all fronts. And in some ways it is. He helps with laundry, dishes, keeps the boys busy before dinner, etc. But truth be told, it just takes time. And I am trying to be patient with myself - and us. I'm learning.
I have finished up two big projects that have been in the works for several months now. I am excited to show you, but waiting for the a-ok to do so. How is that for a tease? And since I have no crafty photos to share, how about a few of the projects I finished right before S's return?
New curtains for our master bedroom out of a bolt of ticking I bought on sale from a second hand fabric store back last summer. My mother gave me the iron tie back ages ago when we decorated my first little rent house together.
Of course there have been several trips to the beach between the wind and storms and tornadoes. I put together this floppy beach bag together out of some natural linen and a thrifted pillowcase to hold all of our snacks and treasures. I had full meaning of adding some embroidery to the top, similar to Amanda's here. But it hasn't happened yet, and its OK if it doesn't. I just love the blue and white pattern.
Sorry friends. I feel like this post is a bit all over the place. Just like my brain right now. But in any case...here's to the ups and downs, the best made plans going all askew, and to being patient with the process. Knowing that in the process itself there is beauty to be seen and growth to be experienced. Or at least that is what I am telling myself.